Yes, ladies and gents, a once young-gun Troy B has made it to 25 years old. Old enough to have some wisdom under his belt, but young enough to not need Viagra (pfft, like I ever would).
So what is the point to this writing? Honestly, it’s just a written reflection on where I am and where I’ve been. The journey from 24 to 25 alone has its share of ups and downs
Troy @ 24 – Happy relationship with a girl he was betting to marry, willing to settle for a life of…decent fun. Low risk, moderate reward. The Spartan? He was just this name that was throught up at 23, and died at 24. The Spartan had no room in a ‘maturing’ life of Troy…
…until ‘The Spartan’ was all Troy had left.
Troy @25 – Who the hell knows? It just started. But, from the moment the once surefire, gonna-marry, relationship came tumbling down, something inside changed. The ‘rules of life’ that I was laid out at 24 not only felt boring and uncomfortable, it just felt downright wrong, like I was betraying myself.
(yes, grammar folks, I switched to writing in 1st person…)
Come to think of it, I really WAS betraying myself. I realized I never lived life by anyone else’s rules but my own. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, I’m a Renegade.
I had a very proud, yet oppressive father growing up. He knew what was best for me, but he laid down the law HARD. I remember being very rebellious and we would but heads a lot. I knew there were times that he loved me, yet he didn’t LIKE me at all.
I just find it ironic. He’s been gone for nearly 5 years, and now I follow his rules, principles, and advice, only because they break everyone else’s rules.
So maybe, just MAYBE, I was never meant to go through this quarter-life crisis that everyone is constantly talking about. Maybe it was because I went through it a year early. That crisis of not having life figured out any longer, not having a plan, and seeing that the fabricated plan you had during college, along with the college lifestyle, just doesn’t work anymore. Some people, like me, have a crisis that the life laid out for them is truly NOT the life they want.
For that…maybe I should be thankful.
So, my fellow quarter-lifers…what can we learn from this? Above all else, self-honesty. If you’re going through a period of unsureness, just take a look inside you first, before taking a look at the world. The world as a whole is beyond our immediate change. All we can do is choose what’s best for US. Your world cannot change if your core isn’t how you want it.
Still not sure? Well…contact info is above…maybe a fresh set of eyes is all you need.